^^A quiet moment. Reading books together amid piles of laundry.^^
Dreaming of: Spring! I can't help admiring the little stems of green popping up in my yard . They're making me so excited. We're all looking forward to feeling the warm sun on our faces and spending every waking moment outside, from bike rides to picnics in the backyard to long lazy mornings at the lake. And according to the weather man, I only have about 24 more hours on the countdown to wait. Woohoo!
^^The craziness never stops. Eating s'mores as an afternoon snack over a real flame. Levi made me laugh with the awe-struck way he said, "Fire!"^^
^^More afternoon yumminess. Orange Julius through giant straws.^^
Loving:
:: How Levi tells me,
"c'mon, c'mon" as he grasps two of my fingers to lead me to whatever he wants at that moment. How can I possibly resist that kind of cuteness?
:: How Levi thinks that smothering any mess with a hand towel will automatically clean it up. I wish that were true! But I don't stop him because he's trying to be responsible and help.
:: How Jed insists on cuddling every night. I hold him under my arm and we read a story together before bed. I don't ever want him to grow up! Those last minutes of the day are so sweet.
:: How Jed still wishes me, "
Merry Christmas!" before I shut his door at night. It's March and the Christmas spirit is not dead in this house.
^^Jed's favorite thing to do is eat popcorn and watch a movie. So that's often what we do when Dad is away for the night. (Are you noticing a food theme here? haha)^^
Re-Reading: Love and Logic for Early Childhood, a parenting self-help book. I figure Levi is about to hit age two and throw me for a loop; I'd better be prepared with a few tricks up my sleeve! My personal goal is to be able to dish out logical consequences for misbehavior without losing my cool 90% of the time. We both, mama and child, feel better about our day when I'm able to do this.
Thinking About: Why I don't teach a dozen violin students or why I haven't pursued a photography business with all the gusto I know I'm capable of.
I kicked off the weekend early Saturday morning as a judge for a friend's violin studio. I remember performing in festivals much like it but on a bigger scale as a kid--performing a couple of pieces, sight reading, written theory tests--it was intense. The festival on Saturday felt much more relaxed, but I could tell the girls were still very nervous! I was kind. They all deserved Superior or Excellent marks. They obviously have a wonderful teacher.
Instances like that make me wonder why I haven't pursued teaching my own violin studio. I really enjoy music! And I loved teaching the violin. So why don't I teach a dozen students? What I think it really comes down to is that I am simply not motivated. As nice as some extra income would be, we are financially stable. And if I'm honest with myself, I often feel overwhelmed with the responsibilities I already do have! Adding in the logistics of babysitters for the boys (or working around their loudness) seems like a headache. Plus, it would mean I'd have less time to spend with my children... and then that mommy guilt starts seeping in. See what I mean? I know I have all this potential for working and pursuing some talents I truly enjoy, I'm just not willing to change or make those sacrifices. I'm comfortable with where I'm at and I love my life the way it is. Does that make me lazy? Or does that just mean I'm sticking to making motherhood my #1 priority? I'm not sure.
^^Levi's favorite thing in the world right now are bubble baths.^^
Our Weekend: After participating in the violin festival, our family of four piled into the truck to spend the weekend on the Nelson dairy. We celebrated our niece, Madelyn's blessing day. She's a beautiful baby girl! A real life doll. It was fun to get all the cousins together and eat and chat all Sunday afternoon. I'm lucky to belong to such a great family!