When My Little Boys Know More Than I Do
1. Last week when I had started my period again, for the thirteenth time, I snuck away into an empty bedroom and sunk to my knees. I just couldn't help the hot tears and poured out my heart to my Heavenly Father. I mean, after two smooth pregnancies I never expected to be a part of that statistic of folks who can't get pregnant. I'm trying to trust in God's timing, that He loves me. I've even almost convinced myself that raising the two little miracles I've been given is plenty enough and will totally be a riot; exactly how God intended. So even though I may claim I'm done trying and moving on to other things, there's still that small glimmer of hope that this month, this month we'll be adding a new tiny member to our family.
A couple of minutes later I heard the boys calling for me so I went to check on them.
"Mom, you sad?" Jed noticed.
"Yeah, Mom is feeling sad right now."
"You know that baby we've been praying for? Heavenly Father says 'no'. There's no baby on the way," I tried to explain.
"Well, you just have to wait a little longer," Jed reassured me with a smile.
Wise words from a little child. I'm taking it as an answer to prayer... because, why not? He's probably right.
2. We were shopping in Winco (the grocery store) when I noticed Levi looking up at the ceiling and happily chatting away in the cart. I asked him what he was doing.
"There's a person up there," Levi explained. I looked, of course. All I saw was air and the ceiling beams 20 feet above. I can't remember exactly what I asked next but his answer was, "No, Mom. It's a girl!"
I smiled and waited a moment. "What's her name?" I fished. He answered something I couldn't understand.
The experience made me pause and reflect. Levi doesn't know how to lie. And sure he has a big imagination, but he was probably telling the truth. I believe in angels and spirits and heaven, and I believe it's closer than we know. I also believe that for little children that veil between heaven and earth can be very thin. Maybe he saw his grandma that had passed on, or his future sister? I don't know. All I know is that was a special moment and I'd like to believe him.